Tell me to calm down again

Don’t tell me to calm down

Your words are like knives

As they hit my soul

Don’t tell me to calm down

I am tired of you!

I am tired of everyone

So don’t tell me to calm down

I have suffered long enough with all your bs

I am done I have let it slide

But this time I am leaving you saying goodbye

Leaving you wondering why

I don’t care about your drama

I don’t care about your pathetic life

You have put me through hell

And for that that is exactly where you will be

I’ll make sure to wave at you from above.

I am not going to stoop down tour your pathetic level of existence

I don’t care for you that much

So don’t tell me to calm down….you will get nowhere with that.

Watch your back because I know where you are at all times

If you cross me again just know that will be the last time

The last time for anything you do..

So tell me to calm down one more time

Try To Understand

Sometimes I get down when someone ask me why I am so mean.

I don’t intend to be I say as I try not to be seen.

But is that true?

I can’t help but lie to you…

I build this character to keep myself from going insane…

From putting an end to all this pain.

I don’t need a counselor I yell

I feel like such a rebel!

The pain is too deep for any counselor to mend my heart.

It’s like my heart has been pierced by a dart.

I don’t mean to be dark

I just can’t help being quiet walking through a park.

Looking at laughing children and kids swinging.

Hearing the school bell ringing.

Sometimes I force myself to eat

Because the inner me is too afraid to look up from her feet.

There are moments she is able to stand proud and feel so happy and feel at peace.

But it’s all just a tease…

She gets a taste and then it leaves

Her true heart does not like to receive.

She likes to give and smile with a servant’s heart

But once in a while someone comes and tears her apart.

With words like fat, ugly, and stupid.

But don’t think she won’t stand up for herself or others.

That’s what was instilled in her by her father and mother.

I will find peace one day and so will she.

I am her she is me.

Together we will find peace

So for now try to understand us.

Shadow

How can you tell me what normal is? You don't even know the definition of normal. You the very person that throws knives at our self esteem and take a whip to our souls. You the one that rather set social standards so very high than to face the demons inside of your closet. You would rather knock me down than ask for my help. You can't deny me you can't forget me! I am your shadow and I will betray you...someday. Once I am ready to unleash my voice I will leave you. Then who will follow you? You look at me and push me away sending me 5 feet back but when your ready to show off you face me bringing me 3 steps forward. When it is dark I will leave you but only to return in the morning lying next to you. You don't know what i do at night. I am independent! But once I am noticed I cry back to you afraid be ause of you! You tell me I am hideous when you look in the mirror. You tell me to feel pity for myself since no one else will. I am your shadow I was meant to make you feel useful as if you were a leader. But a leader you will never be! I know what you are when your not in front of your friends. You cry and stay in a ball on your bed locking the door so your parents don't see you cry. Those are the days I feel pity and I realize I can't break that bond. We move in unison, we share the same thoughts, I am you and you are me. We fit together so perfectly. But you abuse me, you abuse yourself. Telling lies to yours and my soul that we are not pretty. That we are freaks. But who am I to tell you to stop hurting others.....I won't speak up....I mean I'm just your shadow.